ME & other short stories...

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I think that my life has been what most would call "normal". I grew up with a loving family on a farm in a small town rural area. I did well in school, graduated high school, moved into the city and was married less than a year later to my high school sweetheart. We have endured all of the ups and downs, joys and sorrows and life challenges and victories that most families do. We have two wonderful children who are grown and have moved away from home. Sounds pretty normal!​

I have always been a quiet and shy person.

I was always nervous in crowds and awkward around unfamiliar people.

 I became good at putting on a show to seem comfortable. but inside, I was often screaming, desperate to escape. Even at family gatherings, I usually felt out of place. I'd sink into the background, only speaking if someone asked me something. Mostly I listened. And I felt. Everything. Everyone. I knew I was different somehow, I just didn’t know yet that "different" meant being aware. Being an empath.

​Empaths automatically sense any feelings (stress, tenseness, sadness, anger, happiness, frustration, etc.) that others around them are having. I feel these emotions very intensely. It is not just me knowing that someone is having a bad day; it’s me, feeling their bad day alongside them. This intense amount of feeling others' emotions led to a period of deep anxiety and unrest. I went to counselling to get help to navigate through it, and the tools I learned there still support me when I need them.

I am a hidden lake. Many may not know this about me, but I am extremely sensitive and cry during TV commercials, telethons, and any TV show or movie where even a tiny bit of emotional pain or joy shows itself. I cry when the book I read is happy or sad. I cry when heartfelt songs play on the radio or, when someone is truly singing from their heart, first I get the shivers and then the tears begin. Hidden lake for sure!!  If I see someone get hit, fall or experience some sort of accident, I feel the jolt of impact in my own body. I feel everyone’s pain so much that when I sense it, my stomach will churn and my breathing will change. I have lived with this “awareness” for so long that I didn’t know that these weren’t my own feelings, but that they belonged to others. I was always left to wonder what I was worrying about, yet never managed to figure it out. This often resulted in my sitting away from others or being out of the conversations because I was trying to deal with the rolling storms that were happening inside of me, caused by my empathy for others. I knew and felt people misinterpreting this distance I kept. 

Many people who are empaths have this same story, where they feel as though they don’t belong and that they feel everything around them. Many empaths are opening up to awareness even though they are unaware of what is going on. Many never realize that there is something going on and that the feelings they experience are not their own. Many of these people have severe anxiety and use medication to control their nerves and feelings because they are so overcome with the stresses of these feelings, that they can’t function in the world anymore. It makes them feel worse when they are in the outside world where everyone else is experiencing all of the emotions that the empath will eventually take on. 

And so life begins to change and we get older. Children grow and move away. I have more time alone for thinking and am able to pay more attention to things I never paid attention to before. I began my journey to awareness by beginning to open the door (by just a crack!) – even though I didn’t know it! My eyes were opened when a friend posted on social media about an energy healing modality that she was interested in. Being the curious person that I am, I looked it up online and found information on this different way of thinking and living.  The new ideas intrigued me as I knew – I ABSOLUTELY KNEW that there had to be “something more” to life, more than what I had already experienced and accomplished. I did my due diligence and researched as much as possible to find out what the deal was on this new way of thinking. As with anything online, I found the negative comments about it, but the positive comments overtook them by far. This was “something more” for me! I found a practitioner and had a session not expecting a whole lot to happen. It was amazing, and the practitioner unknowingly opened doors for me that I had no idea were even there. This was the beginning of my journey, with the excitement and newness of my true and authentic self, being softly mirrored for me, on the Horizon! 

I began researching and reading books and taking classes! I learned as much as I could! I met amazing people as teachers and other students, each one a catalyst for me on this journey!  My search for more kept propelling me forward!  There were times that I felt that I was moving in reverse, as though I was losing ground on my journey, only to have a lesson put forth for me to learn before I could proceed. I still have much to learn, but the journey is wonderful and is often the lesson! I know that there will always be more things coming for me to continue with my own learning and growth.

Over the years. I've gathered a wide range of training and certifications. Each one has been a stepping stone in my evolution as a healing practitioner.  I am an Infinite Energy Healing Facilitator, working as a vessel for Universal Intelligence and high-frequency energy, intuitively guiding light where it's needed most. I am a Usui and Karuna Ki Reiki Master Teacher, a Master-Instructor of Integrated Energy Therapy ® and a Certified Angel Spiritual Healer, trained to support the clearing and replenishing of the body's energetic system. I have also trained in Level II PureBioenergy Healing®, working with the transmission of pure health energy information for those committed to their physical health. I am an Intuitive and Angel Card Reader, practiced in receiving and sharing messages from Divine Source, the Angelic Realm and your Soul's own team of guides.  Each of these has shaped the way I hold space. Though they are not always in formal practice anymore, the depth, flexibility, and wisdom they've provided, help me embody

more of my Soul's truth.

The future waiting before me is a Divine Path with bumps and potholes and beautiful horizons and I will travel this path until completion. Learning and studying will be with me forever as learning is the key to making life what you want it to be. I will guide and mentor others who are working their way along their own Divine Path and will always be grateful for any knowledge that I gain from clients.

As I am helping them, they are also helping me on my path. 

I wrote out the story above on the day I said, "I am finished hiding". I used to be the shy person in the corner by myself. My former self was not being who I wanted to be and not doing what I truly wanted to do. Time, experience and growth have a way of proving things to us. More and more, every day, I know that I am worthy of being ME, and worthy of being comfortable BEING me, anywhere and anytime.

I serve, offer healing, and guide others when I am TRUE and AUTHENTIC in, and TO, my Divine heart.

So proud to continue embracing my own rebirth and re-worth,

as possibilities are mirrored to me, on the Horizon!

Peace and Love!  ♥ P.

My Personal Declaration: I am me! I embrace who I am, in every moment. My path is before me and I get to choose how I will walk it. I am free when I emerge in my power and authenticity. I assist in guiding others and sharing workable tools so they may engage with their own authentic life. Judgement, opinions and fear do not shake me, as I unapologetically show up in my true heart. Wisdom shines its light through me, that I might act as a beacon to bring clarity to those who are seeking their way. Laughter, peace and joy surround my path, offering lightness, direct and real talk, and pure soul comfort to the hearts feeling that they have nowhere to turn.

I stand, without backing down or giving up.

I am who I am. I give what I can. I do what I want.

With truth.