ME & other short stories...

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I think that my life has been what most would call "normal". I grew up with a loving family on a farm in a small town rural area. I did well in school, graduated high school, moved into the city and was married less than a year later to my high school sweetheart. We have endured all of the ups and downs, joys and sorrows and life challenges and victories that most families do. We have two wonderful children who are grown and have moved away from home. Sounds pretty normal!​

I have always been a quiet and shy person.

I was always nervous in crowds and awkward around unfamiliar people.

 I became good at putting on a show to seem comfortable, but inside, I was often screaming and desperate to escape. Even at family gatherings, I usually felt out of place. I'd sink into the background, only speaking if someone asked me something. Mostly I listened. And I felt. Everything. Everyone. I knew I was different somehow, I just didn’t know yet that "different" meant being aware. Being an empath.

​Empaths automatically sense any feelings (stress, tenseness, sadness, anger, happiness, frustration, etc.) that others around them are having. I feel these emotions very intensely. It is not just me knowing that someone is having a bad day; it’s me, feeling their bad day alongside them. This intense amount of feeling others' emotions led to a period of deep anxiety and unrest. I went to counselling to get help to navigate through it, and the tools I learned there still support me when I need them.

I am a hidden lake; an ocean beyond view. My "current" runs deep. I am extremely sensitive, the kind of person who reflects every ripple of emotion. Whether it’s a TV commercial, a telethon, or a fleeting moment of joy on screen, I feel it all. I cry when the book I read is happy or sad. I cry when heartfelt songs play on the radio or, when someone truly sings from their heart, I get the shivers and then tears begin. Hidden lake for sure!!  If I see someone get hit, fall or experience some sort of accident, I feel the jolt of impact in my own body. I feel everyone’s pain so much that when I sense it, my stomach will churn and my breathing will change. I have lived with this “awareness” for so long that I didn’t know these weren’t my own feelings, but a mirror for every passing swell of emotion carried by others. I was always left to wonder what I was worrying about, yet never managed to figure it out. This often resulted in my sitting away from others or holding back from conversation because I was (unknowingly) navigating these rolling emotional storms that didn't belong to me. I felt the sting of being misinterpreted for this distance I kept. I was simply searching for calm waters amidst a heavy surf. Standing within the waves hitting shore now, I know that this same sensitivity is what allows me to dive deep into the emotional and primordial elements during session.

Many people who are empaths have this same story, where they feel as though they don’t belong and that they feel everything around them. Many empaths are opening up to awareness even though they are unaware of what is going on. Many never realize that there is something going on and that the feelings they experience are not their own. Many of these people have severe anxiety and use medication to control their nerves and feelings because they are so overcome with this stress, that they can’t comfortably function in the world anymore. Too often, they feel worse out in the everyday world where the empath inevitably absorbs the myriad emotions swirling around them. 

And so life begins to change and we get older. Children grow and move away. I have more time alone for thinking and am able to pay more attention to things I never paid attention to before. I began my journey to awareness by beginning to dip a toe in the water – even though I didn’t realize it at the time! My eyes were opened when a friend posted on social media about an energy healing modality that she was interested in. Curiously, I looked it up online and found information on this different way of thinking and living.  The new ideas intrigued me as I ABSOLUTELY KNEW that there had to be “something more” to life, more than what I had already experienced and accomplished. I did my due diligence and researched as much as possible to find out what the deal was on this new way of thinking. As with anything online, I found the negative comments about it, but the positive comments overtook them by far. This was “something more” for me! I found a practitioner and had a session without much expectation. It was amazing, and the practitioner unknowingly helped me wade into the shallows to find and experience expansion and more aligned ways of being. This was the beginning of my journey, with the excitement and newness of my true and authentic self, being softly mirrored for me, on the Horizon! 

I began researching and reading books and taking classes! I learned as much as I could! I met amazing  teachers and fellow students, each one a catalyst for me on this journey!  My search for more kept propelling me forward!  There were times that I felt that I was floating out to sea without a paddle, only to have a lesson put forth for me to learn before I could proceed, paddle in hand. I still have much to learn, but the journey is wonderful and is often the lesson! I know that there will always be more things emerging for me to continue with my own learning and growth.

Over the years. I've gathered a wide range of training and certifications. Each one has been a sandy footprint on the shoreline to evolution as a healing practitioner.  I am an Infinite Energy Healing Facilitator, working as a vessel for Universal Intelligence and high-frequency energy, intuitively guiding light where it's needed most. I am a Usui and Karuna Ki Reiki Master Teacher, a Master-Instructor of Integrated Energy Therapy ® and a Certified Angel Spiritual Healer, trained to support the clearing and replenishing of the body's energetic system. I have also trained to Level II PureBioenergy Healing®, working with the transmission of pure health energy information for those committed to their physical health. I am an Intuitive and Angel Card Reader, practiced in receiving and sharing messages from Divine Source, the Angelic Realm and your Soul's own team of guides. Each of these has shaped the way I hold space. Though they are not always in formal practice anymore, the depth, flexibility, and wisdom they've provided, help me embody more of my Soul's truth. My sessions today are guided by the five primordial elements: Earth, Water, Fire, Air, and Ether alongside the energy of the Sun. I bridge these foundational forces with the wisdom of the plant and animal realms as they choose to arrive, supporting your healing at its most elemental level. It is a collaborative dive into the rhythms that move both the tides and the soul.

The future waiting before me is a Divine Sea with rocks and caves, beautiful horizons (and maybe a sea urchin or two), and I will float the waves until completion. Learning and studying will be with me forever as this is key to making life as you desire. I will guide and mentor others who are working their way through their own Divine Path or Sea, and will always be grateful for any knowledge that I gain from clients.

As I am helping them, they are also helping me. 

I wrote out the story above on the day I said, "I am finished hiding". I used to be the shy person in the corner by myself. My former self was not being who I wanted to be and not doing what I truly wanted to do. Time, experience and growth have a way of proving things to us. More and more, every day, I know that I am worthy of being ME, and worthy of being comfortable BEING me, anywhere and anytime.

I serve, offer healing, and guide others when I am TRUE and AUTHENTIC in, and TO, my Divine heart.

So proud to continue embracing my own rebirth and re-worth,

as possibilities are mirrored to me, on the Horizon!

Peace and Love!  ♥ P.

My Personal Declaration:

I am me!

I embrace who I am, in every moment.

I choose how I will walk  the path before me.

I am free and steady in my power and authenticity.

I assist by guiding and sharing workable tools so others may emerge in their own authentic life.

Judgement, opinions and fear be damned, I unapologetically show up in my true heart.

Wisdom shines its light through me, that I might act as a beacon, bringing clarity to the seekers. Laughter, peace and joy surround my path, offering lightness, compassion, direct and real talk.

Pure soul comfort is extended to the hearts feeling lost, confused, abandoned.

I stand, without backing down or giving up.

I am who I am. I give what I can. I do what I want.

With truth.